HOUSE WITHOUT DOOR - HAUS OHNE TÜR

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gouache & inktense pencils on sketchpaper

yes, this started out as a sketch.. a test really for a new technique i wanted to try out.. and all of a sudden.. it took a life of its own. a few words.. as i rarely say anything about my art. this however, is quite personal .. many years ago i suffered from a phobia, agrophobia to be exact. it is basically a fear of open spaces. what is an open space? anything! at the peak of it, even the livingroom in my own house was an open space. i was a prisoner in my home.. lived in a house without doors, locked in, walls all around. as you live in this fear, there is a deep longing in you, to be able to be free, free like a bird.. move outside, breathe the air, feel the sun on your skin, but you cant, this fear is so much stronger than you.  i got over this sickness, the fear is gone, the phobia a thing of the past..  i am immensly grateful for this..